wHat a NamE eNcoMpaSses

Saw this on someone's profile. Quite interesting, and it seems quite true for me.
Just try...........sOmethIng lighT-hEarted


Instructions :What you do is to find out what each letter of your name means. Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU.


PS : If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.

----CYNTHIA-----


C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
Y You cause a lot of trouble.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
H You are not judgmental.
I You are always smiling and making others smile.
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.


Try it Out!


A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.


B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.



C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.



D You have trouble trusting people.



E You are a very exciting person.



F Everyone loves you.



G You have excellent ways of viewing people.



H You are not judgmental.



I You are always smiling and making others smile.



J Jealously



K You like to try new things.



L Love is something you deeply believe in.



M Success comes easily to you.



N You like to work, but you always want a break.



O You are very open-minded.



P You are very friendly and understanding.



Q You are a hypocrite.



R You are a social butterfly.



S You are very broad-minded.



T You have an attitude, a big one.



U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.



V You have a very good physique and looks.



W You like your privacy.



X You never let people tell you what to do.



Y You cause a lot of trouble.



Z You're always fighting with someone

cHoIceS

Choices are everywhere. Everything I do, I have to decide. Apart from taking into consideration what I want, I have to consider what others feel. It's always easy to say that one just has to do what one desires, and that what others think does not matter. This is utter crap. How many of us honestly does not succumb to societal pressure? How many of us will stand strong in times of adversity and say out loud "This is who I am, and what I want."? Not caring what others think, risking their snide remarks or perhaps in other situations, hurting others, just to be who you are and have what you want? I am dis-illusioned. Big Time. For popularity sake, people hide their identity, do things against what they are to pander to what the crowd wants. For a easy way out, people just opt for the choice that allows them to cater to others' needs, even though its not what they want. Else they choose the other side of the coin, and then "face the music" for taking action to get what they want. Shows how much choices are a "individual" thing huh. Think before making choices. Think real hard, 'cos you would not want to regret making a wrong choice and then make another choice again. It does not affect just you, a single person. It involves others!

eQuaLitY - rEaLitY oR iDeaL?

Was learning about economic welfare today in school. Went away being more cynical about income equality in the world than ever. Pretty much think its more a deSire that's never possible.

--Extrapolated it to reality.--
Got a new phone, and sista was so jealous. Immediately, dad wanted to get exactly the phone i have for my sister, so that we can be "equals" *Roll eyes*

--Extrapolated to love life --
Is it ever possible that in a relationship, both can be equals in all aspects? In giving & receiving, in loving the other & sacrificing oneself? As for the tangible part, would it be possible for both to come from totally different backgrounds; academic/family/social circle/age etc, and still be together for a long time? I guess there will always be societal pressure for conformity. "For bamboo to bamboo door, wooden door to wooden door." Well, if you ask me, CY has taught me to view things from a open manner & at many angles or perspectives. It will be hard when two are not equals; differences will arise. Thats when dating before commitment is important. Over time, it will show if two "unequals" can date :)

KnOwiNg Me, KnOwing yOu nOt

Here is where the story ends, this is goodbye...
Knowing me, knowing you.
We just have to face it this time, we are through
Breaking up is never easy, I know but I have to go"

Today marks the start of my one year "celibacy" aka CY. One year's worth of time for me to rediscover myself, and to learn more about what I am, my beliefs, perspectives and views are. Hard-hearted to remain persistent about the decision I made boldly, this is a much-cherished chance to be able to be detached and re-define many things which I feel needs to be reconciled with reality. Will I be determined enough to stay firm and fulfill my CY? Take the time and use it wisely to know myself better inside out; Reflect and grow in the process. It would be hard not to sway in the face of temptation, and to learn from my mistakes. I hope I will not lose sight of what I set out to do.

LiVe, gRoW, bUt dUn lOsE yOurseLf

"Being in a relationship should be comfortable. Compulsion only
brings about misery. Why not opt out of it then?"

Do everything that you ever want to do. Live life to the fullest, and dun have any regrets. Everyone says that, but in the midst of exploring, it is so easy to lose track of oneself. Going with the flow, I now find myself losing track of reality. I reflected and realised that the distance between reality and what I want is now too huge to reconcile. I no longer know what it is exactly that I desired, be it freedom or commitment. Would i rather be loved, or forgo it for self-realization. Deep down, I know what I want, but will I be bold enough to make the decision, or just passive enough to go along with the flow and somehow pray that things would go the way that it should. Would it be SeLF before OthErs or oTheRs beFore sElf?

"We just have to face it, this time we're through,
Breaking up is never easy, i know but i have to go"

A tRiBuTe tO cHilDreN 's DaY

Gone were the days of innocence
Now came the days of havoc and wilfulness
Your innocence gone
Buried deep in the ground
Never to be found
Lost forever
In the tunnel of darkness
Impossible to look for
Just like a needle in hay
Still I won't give up
Looking and looking
Searching and searching
For just that little bit of innocence
That would bring back the old you
The innocent creature I once knew

Corn-fusion

I have never felt so depressed before. Dilemna sets in like a foreign object. We have been together, with happy times and more recently, the bad. What constitutes a relationship? I have really no idea. Makes me feel so confused. Won't it be great if someone has a set of requirements for which a relationship can be built upon? That way, I wun have to grapple with the issues i have now. Should I be happy that she compromises for me, gives in to me whenever we argue or when I am in a foul mood? Is it not healthy then for a relationship to be built this way? What do I exactly want? Love and commitment or freedom to do what I want. The grass is always greener on the other side. Yet, why am I hesitating to give this relationship up? Or why do I desire freedom when I am supposedly in bliss now? She treats me well, and gives me all I can ever want and more from a partner. Yet why am i not satisfied? Why do I always feel that there is something missing & that we are not meant to be. Why?